cunning boy

i know what you're trying to do, think twice ;) its ok, maybe its still in the early stage of the game where its time for you to mess around with my head.. truth is..

u are a mess yourself! aiyoyo why do i ever have to deal with all this aa? o man. was my life too peaceful that i need to face this TYPE of drama for a short while? life ooo life oo life.. tuuduuu duu duu ..

im not at my best thinking, so it shows how cartoon i am to be saying things rationally in the previous post then this one. seee told u im normal! hahaha

or mybe a lil crazy? big possiblty there~

complication is normal

so much for the drama, it finally hits the end. the game is OVER. how it didnt cross my mind, all this while..that this was 'a game' and if so it is, the game is over baby. i somewhat had my victory in this so called walk of shame, i might not be able to express it, but lets just say its what we call.. self satisfaction, for now, that is more than enough for me. screw whatever they wanna think. if i were to care so much of them, when will i have the time to think of me? after all this is my life, what i make out of it. im glad that it had all been my choices. so i took full responsibility over the consequences i face.

I knew all along, things that i hear about life, the hardship, the cruelty, the happiness are true. how can it not when its revolves all around us? but to know that it is actually happening to me, was somewhat mind blowing! but im grateful enough to god for blessing me the life that i live today but that doest mean i dont messed up sometimes u know. hey, we're all humans! its just a matter of how we take control of our life.. our life is our choice, like i said. Your life is actually what u make out of it.. which in any way, totally make sense.

So i was lied to, straight in my face and i still couldnt see it. Of course im hurt and sad, but that doesnt mean it breaks me. everyone is ough to have their own life experiences.. why live in other peoples experience when u can have ur own? because back to back, these are all choices we make, which sometimes doesnt make any sense at all in the eyes of other people but our self. i played my part, and took my blame because of my own weakness that took control of me, when other people could see it, but not me. and no, i do not regret my choices though i was fairly dissaipointed.

Sometimes i wonder, how is life fair? or is it the saying life is unfair makes more sense ? i hold strongly to my belief, so whatever i do.. despite having a strong or a weak iman, i make my life revolve around my belief and understanding. And the concept applies to anyone and everyone for that matter towards their own belief.

God works in wonders, and as much as i wanna believe life is unfair, because visibly we all see it, that this life is unfair... but if u believe in god, somehow u have to believe that life is fair, simply because... God is fair lah. but then again, how it works out or how it plays off can be unfair in our naked eyes but not God. i tried to be someone who would think 1st before i act, and i believe i can do a good job in doing so but then again, the outcome may not be as rational as what we think it should be or how we expect it.. and when u dont get what u want, or what u strive for.. emotions would take control. anger , sadness, frustration are feelings that works it own ways because theres no switches to it. we are not robots that could easily switch our feeling on and off, but actions, sayings and expression are the things that we can control, that is why people break down, they get angry and they.. pretend.

its complicated.. tell me what is not complicated? even kids find ABC complicated when its a piece of cake to us, but have we ever thought that we were also once a kid? u know, theres just so many types of human being in this world. and people can be miss judge in a split of 2nd.. no one would ever know our real intention but our self and god. people can convince, people can tell the truth and people can still lie, and its all up to us to conclude it. there is no exact or any precise answer to Life. we all know that... thats why we keep thinking and thinking..

and just another thing to let things off my chest.. a friend once said to me that people can change. yes, i agree that people can change. but for a person to change is for others to see the changes without that person having to say anything and we all know.. no one can change u but yourself and God and of course la, it required effort and intention.. i think its just as simple as that..

setinggi mane awak pon, awk tak setaraf berdiri bersama saya

what goes around comes around

how can a wheel work if it doesnt goes round and round ?

Im sorry, but u gave me an impression that i could not spare any respect for you when u made of that remark. You are low, as it is for now.. Perhaps, that will change, when the right time comes, when you learn to know before to judge.. meanwhile, i wont bother pleasing, especially when im off the hook.

i am never that person who impress anyone to 'like' me. i am just.. a simple ME, and i just hope with whatever of good or bad person that i am, them who comes to term to like me sincerely, accept and do so because i am honest. thats all i can say for now.

im not that stupid, and im better than to be off screaming or hating over this matter. God does his job just too perfectly, we human beings sometimes get carried away and confused just a little too much im trying my best to be wise and strong, i hope i'll manage. insyaAllah.

nway, had a great party today. Happy birthday again adam. kakya loves u so much <3

its a wrap

the semester finally ended, and thank god my handphone had least down on ringing. it had been a very.. slow semester in overall. sad but true. im gonna miss designing for another 3 to 4 months, because im startin my internship. interesting.. planning on playin dress up alll over again. i can actually count with my finger just how many times i put on my heels this sem. bimbo much? na ah. i was all real student this semester. its alll good. i wount guarantee flying colours, not even close la.. so im just hoping for the best. and for the time being, im just gonna relax of myself.. i need to really start exercising. my tummy is not getting any smaller! aih.. but the mood is still off.. can;t seem to get my butt off the bed just yet. im resting my self just as much as i had killed off my sleeping time during the sem.. so not yet for the time being.

apart from tht, everything at its ease. families great, boyfriend's great, friend's are great. everything seems to work it ways out. and off the drama, if i were them, i'll be ashamed. but who am i to decide for them. they should be their own judge... really, people should start concentrating on their own life rather than others.

been a whilee

3 more weeks left for finals. isnt that just GREAT? and yet i got tons of things left undone. but still, im acting like a happy bee.. tryin not to get the stress in control. nway, mama found my bloggie.. awwwww Welcome MAmaaa if u're reading this =p do leave a comment. nway, whats here are general laaa. dont la complain2.. i have another blog, which is my 100% personal private blog. so dont worry lah k. whats here are just surface.

leaving for seremban in few mins, means i got less than 10 mins to get ready since everyone is ready, then i gotta head back to sk. tons of things to doooo. toodles

wishh me luck !